It's already so late le and i am still so wide awake@.@

Luckily I am working afternoon shift tml, still not so bad ba. Been uploading new preorder designs for dezirefashionz one whole afternoon. (morning ler? zzz of course:p) Very poor now, that why must work harder to earn more money! Haha! Just now went to visit Dawn Yang blog. So sua Gu me, now then know that this girl exists. Think all other people already heard about her long long long time ago ba. She's really pretty ne, a bit like vivian (the pretty singer overseas). But other pple say is all plastic surgery de. Wa! if really is true, then she is really rich and very BRAVO wor. Can tahan all the pain to go through that ne.

Just a double eyelid surgery to me, is already soo painful and soo soo expensive le. Sigh, just like the chinese saying BU TONG REN YOU BU TONG MING. IF only my family was rich. "Think too much le la'.

Better change topic fast, if not i will be dreaming of plastic surgeries again...

Just this evening, I asked my boyfriend this question:

"Dear, nowadays, do you ever have the thought of putting everything down, take your bag and go home while you are still working?"

Dear replies: " No wor, work so long liao, I actually felt the opposite. I rather stay at workplace to slack for a while more after my work finished before heading back home..."

Huh, I actually feel tt way ler. Everyday when i woke up, I actually dreaded going to work. And while working, i will look forward to my shift end and even can countdown the number of hours left efore i can go home wor. Jialat le, like this how can i finish my 3 years bond there? (I signed a contract with nuh for 3 yrs so as to get paid monthly while studying the nursing diploma in NYP.) I really really need to change my mindset now. But how? I doesn't have any clue on where to start with.

Any one has any ideas? Pls kindly enlighten me...

I always kinda of have the feelings that pple are always taking advantage of me while working. I always seem to be the one scrubbing for the longest cases and running around. Until i broke down in tears one day after work. Halfway riding back home and crying. I felt so angry inside me, but i just dun dare to say out... (I admit I am really a very bad cry baby, just like a water tap, once opened, difficult to close tt kind) Especially hated working with that XX. Senior but useless, very very smart though. Knows how to make full use of other juniors. Everytime working with her, is like one person doing double jobs, work until like mad. Hope can c her less often for the rest of my working life... (Nan lor...Unless she quits... But think i will quit first after my bond ends ba.)

Aiyo, so so late le. Better force myself to go slp. If not tml sure panda eyes... @.@